30 November 2005
he and mi quarrelled over WEN KUN's friendster thingy... i was jealous over she still putting that pic on friendster... he was angry saying it is her prob for still having feelings for him and not his... but how can i not jealous ? i love him... mayb i was overboard juz now behaving like that... was surprised at myself actually... dunno wat come over mi and i couldn't even regonised myself that time... and now he wun pick up my calls... who should i blame ? nobody... i'm feeling veri empty rite now.... tmr will be our 6 months and now this thing happened...
no matter wat I'll go over to his house tmr morning... juz hoping to patch things up... hope he wun chase mi away... I reali hoping...
Dear... If u happened to read my blog, i juz wanna say that I'm sry... and i reali means it...
X-max mood anyone ??
29 November 2005
tks to our cognitive teacher, my whole class is in X'max mood today... haha... all wearing green,white and red... haha... looking more like a tree actually... and Russell was like keep playing all those season greeting songs... i reali feel like today is a X'max eve lah... haha...
HAPPY MARRY X'MAX [in advance peep...]
he called mi early in the morning... i was like asleep lah... it was 4 am plus again... of cos i told him i'm still awake n chat wif him awhile till i reali can't take it anymore... i told him i wanna sleep liao den put down my hp... this morning i reali cant get up... haha ...
i will be going holiday in december... is it a blessing ? to see whether we can go through this seperation ? mi and him... we still have to tahen for his NS and stuffs... so this should be a good start for both of us ba...
computing suck
28 November 2005
ok... where should i start ? about ytd.... i saw keet yan in the morning... kuan meng and his frenz in the afternoon... a few days back i saw sue and he frenz... and of cos siew yen and her bf... jereme and his group of frenz too was at far east a few days ago... all from my secondary school de lor... they were asking how things between peizhi,deivani and mi... i guess whole school kne about our stupid thingy... whatever...
ytd, my workplace there is this is a guy who work near my shop... normally when we have no customers we would come out from our shop den juz chit chat lor... den it is like he keep staring at mi lah... the ger who work beside my shop even notice it lor... she was like keep teasing... haha...
today, computing... what can u expect from sandy in computing lesson ? sleeping lah [of cos...] but my teacher quite cute lor... always give mi B de... even when i dun do work... whahahaha... nice rite ? i kne... so i came to sch for grade lor... duh ! and i'm gonna watch innuyasha later on... now still early lah... so blogging lor... i dun understand a single thing what my teacher teach sia... damn...
omg... saw ash's new guy... i'm so JEALOUS...reali lor... so sweet of him... haha...
i'm quite disturb by wat WEN KUN had done in her friendster... [i kne she has her right and all...] she is my darling's ex lor... but the point is that there is this picture that she put which seem to be the necklace that my dar gave it to her... i was kinda hurt or mayb jealous... i dunno... i hate it lor... y muz she put that pic ? she still like him mah ? i'm so angry lor... can somebody help mi KILL her ? [heh... quite evil hor ?] joking lah... haha
Is it real ?
27 November 2005
the feeling that im feeling ... what is that ? sometime it can make mi feel insecure... sometime it makes mi feel im reali THE one in his life... it is hard to discribe the way this feelings came and gone... it it love ? mayb...
we may argue... we even think about taking a break... but we choose not to... rite ? im glad u r much more mature den mi in this area thus preventing mi from making those stupid decision which i will gonna regret... tks dear... muackx
i kne i haven been the way i used to be... im not sure why im this way... but it is definately not because i dun love u anymore... the love and respect that i have 4 u nv decrease...[ juz wanna let u kne]... when i was posting this, u were having mood swing...
my mind is such a mess... cos of my family financial stiuation... quite sad that both of my parents are jobless right now... which mean lots of things that i cant do... ergh!! reali sAd... (~_~)
enterprise today...
25 November 2005
yea.... toto chan said no calculation liao... wahooo....
wtf... last week science i were same group wif wei zhi lah... den she was like treating mi like a transparent lor... ask her question den she will goes "ermm... u try find urself lah" ... HALO !! if i can , do i still need her meh ? pls lor... she talk more to 'john sim' den mi lor... i reali felt like slapping her across the face lah... tml think should be same group as her again... she is one of the ger whom i say is proud from my class...
early in the morning around 4am like that, my dear sms wor... he sms 'good nite' ... haha... it was in the morning lah... i was sleeping... was awaken by his sms... so i replied... den he called mi... so sweet lor... imagine hearing his voice early in the morning... ytd, both of us din sms each other wat... den later at nite i called him and talk for like 5 mins lor... mood wasn't that good lah... no sms from him or call... but he called this morning lor... muhahaha
ermm...
24 November 2005
am sick... well, about to be sick... rite now juz come back from work... damn tired... wat other choices do i have ? needa work to support myself... sobs sobs...
love my family and frenz for their time that they gave, on my birthday... erm... muackie
ytd, juz visited ash in hospital... josephine, kian wai, joel, yong quan and samuel went along with mi... haha...we went up talking among ourselve when ash's frenz from her new class came... we as in kian wai , samuel , yong quan and mi... joel and josephine went hme rather early... so left with four of us there waiting for dee... but she end up not able to come down... so we juz went down and hunt for our dinner... but we couldn't decide on what to eat... so end up going hme lor...
wah... finaly going on holidays... hehe... but no money to go shopping le... sobs sobs...
dunno wat to write liao... juz finished my UT... jialet... aneway, let mi tell u a little bit about my new class... one main thingy ---> I hate my new class <--- but i think i'm not the onli one that hate my new class... ytd, i was like chatting wif sherlyn on msn and she was like telling mi she preparing to pon the last week in sch as well... that's is wat we call great mind think alikes... hehehe... but seriously ah... who wun hate it when ur class got two fucking annoying girl ? both os them are super proud... one is proud cos of her studoes and the other one is proud cos i also dunno why... but damn irritating lah... so im juz hoping that semester 2 will be over before i know it lor...
gtg le... write 2 u some other time ba...
biRthday ger...
17 November 2005
heh... early in the morning kana wet under the rain... and the stupid slop from the tanglin campus made mi hungry more... ergh... nvm nvm... i can lose weight... heh (^_^)
hehe.... i like josephine the best man.... muhahaha.... roxy !! haha.... ash gave mi chocolate early in the morning sia... so SWEET of her... lolx... but i like it.... my dear's gift haven receive yet... so excited man.... hehe...
k lah... so far so good ba my day... juz the module for today... quite hard.... sob sob
yeah (^_^)
16 November 2005
hehe.... birthday coming soon... (tml tml..) older liao... i dun wanna grow old... heh (no needa mature le mah...) BUT i'm mature by nature so that wun b necessary ba... heheh....
i'm gonna collect all my frenz presents den put it up here... heh... no matter wat is it gonna b i'll like them for sure...
shet... told my teacher i'm gonna go hme liao den suddenly he said no need to meet... (fine..) whatever... so juz gonna stuck here ba.... (ergh...) i hate my day !! (tks 2 u...)
monkee is sMiling (~_~)
09 November 2005
I'm happy... since our honeymoon period , today is the only day I feel i'm a princess to him... finally, i'm smiling... tks you... it muz has been hard on my dear to make mi happy... but today, i was touch by his effort on trying hard to be the bf that i wan... when i tot i'm about to give up, my life had changed... my hopes were put high again... but it's all worth it lor...
I love euu I love euu I love euuu
hmmm... but abit jealous lor... about him going to see his ex's game... sad sad abit... he would nv do such thing for mi lor [i think...] but it's ok... i trust him...
i got my new ph... sAndy got a new ph... na na ni pu pu... heh... too excited already... finally having a colour ph liao...
nth much to write liao... hope i will continue to smile like this everytime ba...
m0nkee cRying (~_0)
03 November 2005
U say U love mi but U dun reali kne mi...
If U reali wan mi, gimme s0metime...
holidays gonna over soon... needa go back school le.... [sad sad...]
how to tell him excetly how i feel ? how can i communicate with him ? lots of things i kept inside my mind that i wanna say it out but wonder how to ? we din have enuff time to talk wat had happened during these period and how am i feeling ? ... i wun tell him 1st untill he ask mi wat is going on... for the time being i would like to keep it inside....
(~_0)
Monyet sedang sedih..
01 November 2005
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