being mI isn't that easy
||SaNdy||
||22 this year||
||currently at home wasting my dearest mummy's money ||
||17 nov 1986||
||scorpio||
i aDoRe
||myself|| . ||him|| .
||dad|| . ||mum|| .
||one N onli baby brother|| .
||all mah frenz & lover-s|| .
||cats|| . ||dogs|| .
||SHOPPING|| . ||sleeping|| .
||horror movies|| . ||engllish songs|| .
||white colour|| .
||all sort of food|| . ||bubble tea from sweet talk|| .
i HATEs
||cocaroaches|| .
||total darkness|| . ||isolation|| .
||hypocrites|| . ||lies (all sort)|| .
||fattening foods ||
||her|| . ||them|| .
my WISH-es
||his love|| .
||new laptop|| .
||new hp|| .
||lesser nagging from my mum|| .
||sony digital camera|| .
||APPLE i-pod nano|| .
||a new jacket|| .
from myanmar again...
31 December 2005
second time in a roll... happy new year... i cant be in s'pore in time due to some reason... but will be back there by 4th of jan... i guess so ba... enjoyed my stay in myanmar... lots of things had happened... all kinda stuffs... trust mi, u dun wanna knoe...
tonight, i will be celebrating new year wif my frenz from here... they will be staying over at my house tonight...quite excited lor... heh...
wondering how my dear has been doing... talked to him last night... so0o sweet to hear his voice again... hehe... wonder to myself ---> how will he spend his new year ? <---
that's for now... take care... buaiz
somthing called Faith @ 7:09 PM
here got internet access !
16 December 2005
wow amazing ! here can go into my blog !! ok... wat can i say ? everything here had changed ever since i could remember... everyday is spent busily... met up wif some of my old frenz... cool !! they still rmb mi sia... heh... i'll be arriving back in s'pore on 1st jan... dun miz mi too much wor...
dunno wat to write le... i guess that's all for now ba... later den update more...
somthing called Faith @ 4:47 PM
holidays
12 December 2005
wat can i say ? busy now adays... couldn't even update here... but sometime some of the things are better left it unsaid... it was meant to be... no point forcing it... so i'm not gonna put some of the feelings up here...
Love is better than Hate...
I'll try to love him as much as i can... i kne he hurt mi time and time again... i, too hurt him in many ways... perhaps, this is the way it should be... trying to live wif each other differences...
somthing called Faith @ 8:00 AM
04 December 2005
A gently kiss to make u sleep thr the night
A warmful hug to make u sleep well and tight
Some sweetening love to make ur dream so sweet
And the little me just to make u so complete
this poem u had given it to mi... u might already forgotten about it... but it still has a place in my heart dear...
7 months already... my feelings are still strong... surprising ? not reali ba... wishing i could get back those times when we were so happy... when u reali would b there... but now.... [where r u ?]
crying again... hurting inside... pls stop it... stop making mi feel like i'm no longer needed in ur life... need to control my tears which r flowing right now when i'm actually posting this...
U said u dun have money to go out wif mi? ... i wonder is it all that to it ? no money ? We can still go out chit chat... but it seem u dun even care... i'm not like ur ex who can stay w/o seeing or going out wif u... I juz can't... i'm not her... i'm reali veri angry by the fact that u got time and money to go out wif ur frenz but when u r wif mi u juz dun have all those anymore... it's seem like u rather spend ur money wif them instead of going out wif mi... I'm very hurt by all those...
where is my dear whu promised mi he'll pull mi out of depression when i was still wif filamin ? where is he ? tell mi pls cos i miss him so... U promised u will try to be the bf that i wan... I'm holding onto that promise alone dear...
somthing called Faith @ 4:30 AM
no comment
03 December 2005
alright... my hp was kana stolen on NOV 30... and i reali dun wish to talk about it again... pls stop asking wat happened or anything else... [if u could understand wat i'm feeling rite now..] it will onli make mi feel worse...
I had been skipping sch even when there is UT .cos no mood to see ppl using hp... i m totally a failure... had no motivation rite now... no mood for anything as well...
ya... mi and my bf quarrelled over a stupid little thing... and i wish to forget about it totally... cos my emotions r still unstable...
Rite now, i can get angry or furstrated easily... can cry readily... can mad at u for no reason...
Currently listening to An-Jing by Jay Chou...
somthing called Faith @ 2:25 AM
