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being mI isn't that easy
||SaNdy||
||22 this year||
||currently at home wasting my dearest mummy's money ||
||17 nov 1986||
||scorpio||
i aDoRe
||myself|| . ||him|| .
||dad|| . ||mum|| .
||one N onli baby brother|| .
||all mah frenz & lover-s|| .
||cats|| . ||dogs|| .
||SHOPPING|| . ||sleeping|| .
||horror movies|| . ||engllish songs|| .
||white colour|| .
||all sort of food|| . ||bubble tea from sweet talk|| .
i HATEs
||cocaroaches|| .
||total darkness|| . ||isolation|| .
||hypocrites|| . ||lies (all sort)|| .
||fattening foods ||
||her|| . ||them|| .
my WISH-es
||his love|| .
||new laptop|| .
||new hp|| .
||lesser nagging from my mum|| .
||sony digital camera|| .
||APPLE i-pod nano|| .
||a new jacket|| .
hais =(
31 March 2006
I whispered but nobody listened...
then i spoke yet it turned out the same...
would have screamed but the words died within me and my voice had been silenced in shame...
i took a step and i lost my direction...
i tried to walk but i stumbled and fell...
would have run but my steps had no meaning and my journey no story to tell...
somthing called Faith @ 12:03 PM
30 March 2006
damn shet* gotta improve on my fcuking* english... ughhhhh... can someone or any kind soul help mi wif my broken english ? yah... good idea... (read more books!!)
a total broke this time... poor mi... but cant b help... my precious hp was spoilt... n i gotta buy a new one... this time mayb N70 ? my whole month pay's gone... juz like tht... all thks to fruit-ade (green color one)... haix...
i realised tht i still do care about the happening in the life of peizhi n deivani... but well... no point still holding on... they seem they have move on... mayb tht is wht i should have done long time ago... why do i still holding onto this meaningless piece of friendship ? haix hiax... sadded can... (is there such a word anyway?)
ok... this particular msg which i tot im not gonna put it up here but afterall i've decided to put it anyway.... i feel im neglected in many ways by H.C... i dunno but reali im hurt... so badly tht i forgot how to smile carefreely...
somthing called Faith @ 2:04 PM
i am someone who talk tough
BUT soft inside...
i am someone who is happy
BUT sad inside...
i am someone who seem carefree
BUT scare inside...
i am someone who laugh easily
BUT crying inside...
somthing called Faith @ 2:01 PM
hurt+broken+ignored+uncared+unwanted
29 March 2006
care to look at mi ? juz once... juz to see how im coping ? hurting down inside yet i din show... the reason for it is simply cos i feel i dun need to... i tried to forget... i tried to ignore... i even tried to move on... but everytime i try i get hurt all over again... u may not understand what im saying but i dun care... juz put tht smile on my face again... cos i had forgotten how to anyway... u promised everything will b alright... i trusted u so much so tht it gave mi courage to do things tht i may have never do otherwise... dun tell mi im thinking too much again cos i knoe im not THIS TIME... =(
somthing called Faith @ 2:36 PM
24 March 2006
been bz lately... super bz!! haix... slept at 4 am sharp ytd n woken up by my my mum at 7 am! time to work i tell myself... still sleepy along the way to work which is at Tekka Mall... surprisingly din fall asleep on the BUS... hah =) gotta complain like hell about this job... many things to complain actually... so i shall not bored anyone wif my complaints...
Dev sms-ed mi ytd nite asking about mi whether still wanting to buy a puppy as one of her fren is selling hers... her msg weas short BUT not sweet... it doesn't matter anymore anyway....
times flies like nobody business... im already in year 2 n still so childish!! heee =) cant believe it... sheesh
keep saying about mi getting driving licence... well from SId's motivation im REALLY gotta get one during this year... i swear... +&
ok... blah blah blah wat else to write now ? oh ya... okok this's serious stuff... 2 days ago at my working place there's this "ang moh" supervisor came to make fren wif mi...
ang moh: hi... wats ur name ?
mi: sandy... urs ?
ang moh: mine ..... (i din reali bother of his name ...)
mi: oh...
ang moh: oh... hey... u r pretty, sandy...
mi: er.. thks...
ang moh: u dun trust mi?
mi: haha... not tht... but anyway, i will definately treat u next time... tks
ang mog: why ! (angry face) when we, european said tht ur pretty it meant its TRUE... we r not like asian who do things n their actions doesn't match!
mi: er... ok... (looking confused)
ang moh: (walked away...)
morale of the story ? haix... i DUN even get it... hahaha
somthing called Faith @ 12:28 PM
- -!
10 March 2006
<2:oo>First of all , happy birthday to kian wai!!!! Hahah... im posting this while im waiting for H.C... later meeting kian wai they all go ktv... I think I will b late liao... all tks to H.C!!! that pig ! im like all ready to go out larh!
<11:35pm>ok... now im back... tired (HELL , yes..) hah... what shall I discribe our outing for today ? fun, hilarious... (is it the correct spelling , damn), outragous..(not sure how to spell this too !so nvm...), crappy (definately!!!), last BUT not least LAME.... total of how many of us actually went arh... 8 uh... MI,H.C,Joel,Josephine,Hong Yuan,Samuel,Sherlyn,Yong Quan... I had to left half way from KTV cos of smth but i joined them back(OK!!) arnd 8++pm at plaza singapura to play pool... end up onli sherlyn, joel, hong yuan, josephine played nor... the rest of us went to play arcade from the next door... heh... as the saying goes "We Must Act Like Our Own Age" ... spreading LAMENESS from kian wai na... *bleh ok larh... overall enjoyed my day n hope kian wai like our present...
during my "seperation from kian wai & co." i ended up following H.C to meet up wif his frenz at suntec... quite scary to meet them nor... well, u may never kne when u r being judge at... let mi tell u it was SCARY!!! but it turn out juz fine lar... i kept quiet during when they talk onli nor... i MUz b reasonable wah... give n take... =p have been quite sometime i wrote how much i love him... oh well, i think i dun even needa type anything here to prove to anybody about it... onli TIME will tell... rite dear ? mi smarter liao nor... heh heh heh =)
somthing called Faith @ 11:49 PM
headache+muscle cramp
07 March 2006
headache headache headache.... =( poor poor mi hmmm... gotta save money and buy myself i-pod nano... H.C also buying nor... =p nth much to write... keep working n working these days from 9am to 10 pm... haix
somthing called Faith @ 10:18 PM
short short short....
04 March 2006
hahahah.... my dear god-brother told mi that i DUN look like i'm 20 years old... it's called young at heart hor... not IMMATURE!!!!!
underworld is the movie i wun recommand to ym frenz bahx.... not so bad actually but u muz watch the 1st part den u can understand the part one now showing... lots of voilent bahx...
mood damm bad now... no mood for anything right now... dunno y H.C reply till so clod so cold like tt... mayb im thinking too much aGain ? i wish i am!!!!
tml have to work again... $_$
somthing called Faith @ 10:21 PM
whatever ... all's juz craps
01 March 2006
my days started out quite bad... my left eye felt so ichy since i open my eyes this morning and i keep rubbing it... now it look sore to mi... damn it nor... UT , i couldn't finish all the qns... =( after UT half of the class were gone! Mr Moey treat us wif PizzA n KFC... [LoVe every single bites of it =p] today lesson was kinda relaxing though... about this super natural thingy that happened arnd us... rofl =) went to work after school... crap wif Alicia... n today strangely enuff her "Flusk" came down! that idiot dun dare to take no. from him nia... *roll eyes*
today is some special day for mi n H.C ... 10 month liao nor... time flies damn fast when u r enjoying it... Love evenry single second wif him... <33 hah
somthing called Faith @ 11:55 PM
my DARLINGs
sing for mii . gimme a kiss . say you do