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sad story that really touched mi.. ;(
29 May 2006

A girl and a guy were speeding over 100 mph on the road on a motorcycle...

> Girl: Slow down, I'm scared...
> Guy: No, this is fun...
> Girl: No it's not... Please it's too scary!
> Guy: Then tell me you love me...
> Girl: Fine I love you. Slow down!
> Guy: Now give me a BIG hug... (Girl hugs him)
> Guy: Can you take my helmet off and put it on yourself? It's bugging me...
> In the paper the next day: A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of brake failure...
> Two people were on it, but only 1 had survived...
> The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him and felt her hug one last time, and then he had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die...
>If u love any one this much...let them know ... before it's too late...

> I love you forever.....and always to the end .... n imissyou...

somthing called Faith @ 12:58 PM

hais.. ;((
25 May 2006

I'm only an ordinary gal.
But sadly, I don't want to be the gal i am now..

I'm sad with how things turned out to be..
So crumbled jumbled, just like how i feel inside now..

It's been raining heavily in this chapter of my life...
When will the sun appear to stop the rain.. and all the pain..
So that i can begin a whole brand new chapter of my life..
How long do i have to wait, till that day finally arrives??

If I could I would turn back the time..
I want to start from the beginning and make my own decision.
I want to be a marionette no more.. It is really tiring..

I want no more loneliness and no more unhappiness.
No more worries and no more crying.
No more missing and no more pining.

I just want more laughters and more happiness.
More surprises and more smiles.
More of you and more of me.

Who can tell me how and where do i start..?

somthing called Faith @ 8:43 PM

why do i even bother ? funny... i shouldn't ... how many days it had passed by ? i already told myself many time juz to give up... try to make myself happy... but do i succeed in the end ? NO! n im getting sick of trying n trying n juz trying... without getting anything in return... forget it... juz my luck but do i deserve it ? i dun think i do actually... veri sad in fact... u may not understand everything that i had mention here but well, it doesnt matter anyway... the more u wun understand the better it would b... arghs! i really do angry at myself... for letting it go this far... letting myself get hurt many time over... so MAY B i DO deserve it... oh whatever~ i saw it!! i really do saw it... the flirtation by him to her... i dun wish 2 talk about it anymore... screw mi!!!

saturday! finally will slacking with Alicia n the group again... she is working back at far east again by the way... omg~ i know she wouldnt bear to leave mi de... hahas... hais... whatever again...

so overall, my school is suck [too stressful] , UTs suck as well , workplace suck [too boring] , my life suck [screw mi again!!] wtf~

somthing called Faith @ 10:36 AM

da vincci*
21 May 2006

Woah, finally I watched DA VINCCI CODE ... my advise to those who wish to watch and haven watch, juz b prepare to learn about Christianity and its history... Many parts of the story made mi confused though... Mayb I wasnt reali familiar with that religions n stuff... But overall it was not a bad movie... I would give it 3 out of 5 ba... Now I still left with how many movie to watch ar? hmmm counting down...I think still left with M I 3 , VOICE , and still got one more but wats tht sia... Forgotten about it totally (damn)... *thinking real hard*

Oh whatever lar hor... Anyway, I saw peizhi the other day in the lift after school... We juz said hi n bye (thats all)... Nah, life move on so do we. What else to update? Nv go school for *god know* how many days... Juz doesnt have the motivation to go lor... H.C will b going in NS this coming June... Hmm... Think of it in a good way or should I think of it in a bad ? arghs dunno nna...

Singapore idol will b on today channel5 8pm slot... Try to catch it and try to realize how we Singaporean make fun of ourselves on a national television... Ya ya I know this is their choice n we have no right to say n stuff... But come on lar... If u dare to go for the audition yet u cover your face ? (season1 *banana man*) ... some of them r juz trying to garb our attention even though when they know they stand no chance in making to the Final... bu yao lian lor ? mayb...

somthing called Faith @ 2:28 PM

whatever lor~
15 May 2006

y muz they call it heaven's door n hell's gate ? y cant they call it reverse way ? like heaven's gate n hell's door ? sound seem nicer... arghhs whatever lor~ *fainted*

kets like to say >whatever lor< the stupid pharse... mi alicia n jamie were all kana influenced by it na... even eunice... hahas... lame* whatever lor... anw if in near future when u trying to say somthing n i suddenly say whatever lor pls dun b surprise... all blame goes to kets... tks u v much *Fainted AGAIN* super lame sia... nvm nvm... i knoe wat im typing this time...

recalled about last a couples of days... babysitting~ super tired man... n it reali make mi think whether i should have a child of my own when i married... arghhhs~ he screamed he kick he run he pee (where ever he like) he shit (when he wan) he cry like nobody business~ hahahas n think of tt alicia can even ask mi babysit her n seduce mi by saying she's bigger n cuter... ewrm... BIGGER ,yea correct... cuter ???

stupid kuan meng sms mi yest jio mi watch mission impossible 3... n im in the middle of my babysitting session... n when i told him i cant he was like reali not free meh ? n put tt sad face :( idiot... n 3 hour later he sms mi sayign the movie was so NICE!!! i hate him lar... he can suggest we go watch next week 2nd time for him... lolx... whatever lor~

tml alicia jio mi meet her... hais... shagged liao still wan meet her meh ? nvm... later ask her treat~ wakakaka *evil grin*

somthing called Faith @ 10:17 AM

know the person~ know the face~ dunno their heart
10 May 2006

know the person know the face dunno their heart

traslated from chinese... heh... the taxi uncle teached mi this chinese pharse... u may know the person u may know their face but u may never know wat is their heart like... meaning to say "dun judge book by its cover" ... true or not can think for urself... i suppose i believe in such thingy... like Karma... i DO believe wat goes arnd always comes arnd... happened to mi once or twice or even manytime... so ya, basically i believe in life-after-death retribution... but i dun believe in there is such thing as world after-death though... we may end up in either hell or heaven... but will we b coming back as a human ? tt smth wat we r not sure about... know wat im trying to say... argh... heck it... i dun even understand wat the hell im typing anyway...

went to ICA w/ mum... n took taxi to H.C hse n guess how much it cost mi? $17... sheesh! tt is when the taxi uncle come in... he talk alot during my half an hour journey... but he was quite entertaining lar... hahas... have to go M.O.M again.... hais... den to work at 5pm... mood swing ? nah... will nv gonna happen anymore [i suppose...] live ur life the way u wan it.. see the world the way u like it ... my motto~

somthing called Faith @ 1:08 PM

must watch this!!
05 May 2006

somthing called Faith @ 11:48 PM

hais... been awhile since i actually post smth... LAZY!!!!!!

3rd week of school and im already so shagged~ cant call mi weak knoe... it's the damn school(y muz they build so far ?) ... every morning i have to wake up like 6 45am~ argh!!!

seriously, hevn been quite downs recently... i mean yea, my mood wasn't so nice at all for this past 2 days... n guess who kana ? Kiat!!! (or a.k.a ikea) lolx... whenever he wan disturb mi always kana DIAO by mi den i think he kinda feel bad... been quiet for these days liao lar he... hahaa... poor him~ ok not my FAULT!! anw, yea officially BROKE!!! more liabilities den capital... ~bloody shet~

ok... talk about my class ? the new one i mean... E25P~ beside the fact that half of my classmates are smokers and guess wat... im not trying to say wat lar hor... but in my class i can count how many chinese but i lost count on my malays classmates!! but quite fun na... always making xcuesses and backing each team up... we r that close in this 3 weeks... werid arh ? sort of i guess... we seem to REALLY get along so well that sometime u dun even feel an anger even if their jokes became mean... not to mi of cos but to those other guys...

these days i've been surrounded by lesbians, butch and sisi!! so much so that i've been thinking should i become a lesbian instead~ =X ok... it came out sooooo wrong... joking larh... n to think kevin actually believe tht i would reali become a lesb... he was like no! u cant become one jie... hahas kawaiii~

love this pharse ;
`Juz Close Your Eyes Each Loving Days ,
`And Know This Feelings Won't Go Away ..

somthing called Faith @ 11:08 PM

argh!!
03 May 2006

I really cannot take it anymore. Patience has a limit. Don't think that everytime you see me smiling, I can tolerate. Smiling is just a way to ease the tension. But now I just can't. I'm just too irritated. I don't understand, I tried to be enthusiastic and participative but nobody seems to notice. I hate this kinda feeling. It's just like... in secondary school. At least that time, I still have my library teachers to appreciate me. Now? I doubt so. Friends.. I just don't seem to get what i expect. Maybe I don't have the money. Maybe I don't have the freedom. Or maybe I just don't have the people. Read some blogs and i'm kinda jealous. Somehow, they either have the money or have the people. But I have none. Ambiguous. Means what? Means confused. Duno what he want. I want break off. Break off from ambiguous-ism. Either yes or no. So difficult meh? Hint so much also dun understand. I'm trying really hard but no one notices. I guess it's just not hard enough. Okay. Wait and see. Maybe I should just go join some sorta cliques then be happier. Maybe other people won't be happy but at least I'm happy. Care so much about others in the end get a whole pile of shit. Ignore them be ruthless and selfish still can enjoy life. Idiot. What has this world become?
Even if I have problems about u [most of the time].. I still end up turning to you for company. It's this pathetic. Without you, I duno how I'll be. Yet I don't want it to be like this. It's just not right. I dun wanna just have someONE. I wanna have... i duno how to say...

Recalled about certain events. Can't believe on what happened. So people hate me. They just hate me. Maybe they don't say so but they do. I feel so unjust. I don't deserve it. I tried my best to help everyone whenever I can and this is the shit i get? I wasn't biased. I know who was wrong. I wasn't defending him. I just stayed by him when everyone else were condemning him. So that's what I was wrong? And what I said, what I clarified, weren't even supposed to mix with that day's event. They are two separate issues! It's true, I've always been lending a listening ear when anyone needs me but not getting any form of respect or gratitude in return. It's really saddening. Perhaps I'm still a tool after all. A tool in which people use and throw aside until needed again. A tool people complains about once i get less useable yet no one tries to bring me back to my original condition. I need the form of assurance too. Don't u get it? Even a tool needs sharpening. It's not just about u. You dun understand how much burden i have to carry. For you, it could be one, yours. But for me, it's definitely more than 1.. and it's increasing as time passes. What the hell am i doing? You won't even understand.

somthing called Faith @ 11:15 PM