being mI isn't that easy
||SaNdy||
||22 this year||
||currently at home wasting my dearest mummy's money ||
||17 nov 1986||
||scorpio||
i aDoRe
||myself|| . ||him|| .
||dad|| . ||mum|| .
||one N onli baby brother|| .
||all mah frenz & lover-s|| .
||cats|| . ||dogs|| .
||SHOPPING|| . ||sleeping|| .
||horror movies|| . ||engllish songs|| .
||white colour|| .
||all sort of food|| . ||bubble tea from sweet talk|| .
i HATEs
||cocaroaches|| .
||total darkness|| . ||isolation|| .
||hypocrites|| . ||lies (all sort)|| .
||fattening foods ||
||her|| . ||them|| .
my WISH-es
||his love|| .
||new laptop|| .
||new hp|| .
||lesser nagging from my mum|| .
||sony digital camera|| .
||APPLE i-pod nano|| .
||a new jacket|| .
juz being TOO emo
29 August 2006
Been thinking... If it was never meant to b there is no point pinning onto it, rite ? so here im RE-thinking about my past... wat had happened… or wat SHOULD have happened... mayb it was never meant for us (3 of us) to b together for long... we broke up soon after our O lvl which was kinda sad but hais… mayb was my fault, mayb it's theirs ... saw deivani ytd at the bus stop at ghim moh as I was passing by to go orchard... she look mature though which is a good thing... mayb this is really a end of our friendship... hahs ... y m I being such a emo kid ? move on SANDY!!! They already had moved on (clearly) ... sometime when it's time for u to let it go , JUZ LET IT GO u idiot... haisssss =(
somthing called Faith @ 1:03 PM
typical day =)
28 August 2006
how can anyone b so cruel ? added in friendster for like 1 month onli end up waiting for her approval... hahs... yesh! that's mi... i made a guy waited for one month b4 FINALLY approving him on my friendster... he was like keep complaining larh... gosh~ First of all, i DO NOT knoe him n tell mi a good reason to approve him straight away ? so there you go... time for my hp bill which was sitting right next to my lappy (thx to my mum who opened the letter box today)... lemmi open it...hmmm... yeah!! my bill for the month $ 54.90... my first time okie... broke record le... im aiming for like $40 which i dun think i can achieve in ANYWAY... unless of cos i dun plan to sms or call out for an entire month... hahs.. but anywhat im glad tht my bill din go up till $100 this month... my mum been nagging n nagging bout mi bill (which is always arnd $100-$130) whenever she see my bills... this month im nag-free!! hope so~ i owe my mum like how much ? hmmm... $200 plus plus...
*dang that trip to myanmar for all my unhappiness!! *
somthing called Faith @ 12:28 PM
missing teddy bear (T_T)
22 August 2006
okie... 3:30 AM now! as usual i cant slp AGAIN thus decided to put this instead... got it from a fren of mine... some of it ish REALLY true larh okie... some ish erm.. quite interesting lor... hahs
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better.
Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve
then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself
a year later for staying when things are not better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant,
Why would he treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has
more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man.
Oh Lord! If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two-way street.
You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about
baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists
of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.
Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and your
always readily available to him- he takes it for granted.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
Share this with other ladies..... You'll make someone SMILE, another
RETHINK her choices, and another woman PREPARE.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate
them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them
somthing called Faith @ 3:34 AM
been quite long since i've updated my blog hor... actually TOO long i think... not free larh... i wasnt even online these days... im so bored rite now, okie... so stress now adays as well... argh !!! neways , nth much happend so far...
i think writing in here seem quite pointless... let mi xplain the reasons ;
1) i dun usually feel comfortable to open up my feelings to others esp: if most of my frenz r gonna read watever im about to rank my feelings about...
2) i needa think twice b4 writing about anything or anyone...
3) i REALLY m veri sick of re-writing everything that had happend so that others can read N "so called" understand...
4) i started to think im writing all these not for mi, myself BUT for entertaining those who's gonna read it...
5) what for trying so hard to keep a blog when u cant write whatever u wishes to ?
*i tot of changing my blog skin but cant seem to find any... if anyone got a nice skin to introduce do drop mi a clue, okie... thks =))*
mi N h.C gonna b celerbrating our 16 month anniversary next coming friday (01.09.06) ...
somthing called Faith @ 12:51 AM
ZzZZZZzzz
13 August 2006
okie... bout my msn nick- it's reali simply juz the song title... i haven't break up wif hC or anything so pls STOP asking mi such qns... it gets on my nerves... but funny though when ppl start asking mi bout it... i rmb the veri first one to ask is malcolm... n follow up kuan meng n so on n so forth...
been bz lately thus failing to update on my entries... nothin much to report actually... work n work n work these days... it can keeps mi bz enuff though... hahs... =) oh IF u muz knoe, i kept buying story books these days... omg~ i already spent like $37.95 on books alone in 2 days... argh!!!!
*currently im into punk-rock music...* my taste of music changes from time to time... i hate it yet i cant help it.... im currently in love with THE VERONICAS... esp: Lisa... she's so sweet n punk all mixed up... like her style n her voice... =))
guess that's all is there for mi to update bout mi...
P.S im REALLI hungry rite now (oops, out of point) ...
somthing called Faith @ 1:08 AM
=) being mi isn't that simple (=
06 August 2006
last week was one of my worst week EVER in my life... imagine life w/o someone to go shopping with nor someone to talk/sms every days... not that is hard for mi to find such person but juz that im picky on finding one... i had a few quarrels with my mum n my bra-ther... N they made my life like living hell... n when i tot things couldnt get worse it hit mi... the news on mi re-taking my sem1... wtf~ i sooo hate my life right now!! seriously... i need some advise on "how to live life the way you plan it..." hais~
i find it harder to trust ppl these days... not even to my mum...i mean last time she used to b my buddy n all but now i juz cant bring myself to talk things that had been there... if u get wat i mean... argh~ i think im becoming abnormal le... sadded~ mayb i cant handle myself being alone since my bf cant b with mi 24/7 le... im so childish larh!! omg... (i better dun publish this entry)... =((
*i tot of deleting this entry but last minute changed my mind so enjoy =X*
somthing called Faith @ 4:07 PM
arghh~
03 August 2006
ok... juz a few days back i heard some rumours bout myself... from some myanmar in my poly... hahs... guess wat they said ? that im too proud of myself n that im too arrogance... omfg~ m i reali a bitch in their eyes ? well, not like i will care but hey if u dunno mi its better u juz keep ur mouth shut isn't it ? if u cant stand mi den stay away... those of you whu simply cant do wat i juz wrote, well den u deserve to b treated that way... hahahs... i dun feel pity on yea if u were 2 b treated that way nor will i b sorry... get it =) i wont go arnd pretending 2 b friendly juz to impress em... nor would i purposely b too bitchy juz 2 get their attention... if u crossed my path den darlin ur in my way... XxlolxX...
i need to retake my sem1 yr2 at the end of my yr3 sem2.. well it cant b help but i reali feel like sh*t rite now... haix =(
somthing called Faith @ 3:25 PM
