being mI isn't that easy
||SaNdy||
||22 this year||
||currently at home wasting my dearest mummy's money ||
||17 nov 1986||
||scorpio||
i aDoRe
||myself|| . ||him|| .
||dad|| . ||mum|| .
||one N onli baby brother|| .
||all mah frenz & lover-s|| .
||cats|| . ||dogs|| .
||SHOPPING|| . ||sleeping|| .
||horror movies|| . ||engllish songs|| .
||white colour|| .
||all sort of food|| . ||bubble tea from sweet talk|| .
i HATEs
||cocaroaches|| .
||total darkness|| . ||isolation|| .
||hypocrites|| . ||lies (all sort)|| .
||fattening foods ||
||her|| . ||them|| .
my WISH-es
||his love|| .
||new laptop|| .
||new hp|| .
||lesser nagging from my mum|| .
||sony digital camera|| .
||APPLE i-pod nano|| .
||a new jacket|| .
{ Wat the hell m I writing ? }
25 August 2005
Feel sad... Feel damn lousy... Feel f**k up... Feel so alone... Feel like nobody care... Feel like nobody there to share... Feel lost... Feel regretted... Feel confused... Feel abandoned... Feel sleepy... Feel hungry... Feel angry...
U name it I felt it...
I visited peizhi's blog... Feel sad... I reali wan her back... As a best frenz at least... But i dun think there is any second chance 4 mi liao ba... Cried so hard ytd... Juz 2 make mi feel better... Juz 2 confirm tt I'm all alone...
My mood was down this morning since the time I open my eyes... I m damn angry at myself for putting so high hope 4 ytd... he told mi tt he would try rush his project den will fetch mi after my work... I was like " wahhh!!!! reali ? " ... I was reali hoping secretly that he would gimme a surprise by showing up but in the end I hurt myself... I told myself manytime not to put too much hopes on things but this time I lost it... May b he coming to fetch mi is too important 2 mi ba... I cried after my work all the way from Far East plaza to Orchard Mrt... Could u imagine ? Luckily, it was dark along the way... Whenever i see couples holding hands teasing to each other i envy them alot... It seem like I have a bf in name but nth more 2 show tt he is mine... I dun even have photo of us together... It's sad to think about all this but It's all true... I told myself... (U were hurt coz u allow it to hurt u... if u dun allow urself to get hurt by anyone u won't hurt anymore...) ... I dunno wat does tt suppose 2 meant but it seem cool...
I feel so bad nia... Slacking my way thru... hehe... but reali no mood to work lor... haix
somthing called Faith @ 9:43 PM
